MINISTERIAL SEDUCTION

There are times when I am amazed of how a woman will allow herself to be so engulfed in a man to a point she does not consider the logic behind it. There is a drawing force that automatically draws a woman to a man. It gets a hold of her and takes her to another world. Some people say it was activated in the Garden of Eden when the woman became disobedient to the command of God. This hypnotic drawing force is often times misinterpreted as falling in love by some women. In reality, it is seduction - a means for a fall. How does something like this happen? It happens very easily. Women become very susceptible to seduction in moments of loneliness, unhappiness and at times during stages of low self-esteem. The problem with this is the loss of power experienced once the seduction is successful. This usually means not an increase of love but a lack of love from the seducer. Their reason for the seduction is usually for self-gain. Women are the last to know as they find fulfillment in the connection to the man that has chosen her above other women. Do you know men of God have this same seductive influence over women? Trust me, many of them know it too. They have a special way of making women feel they are so needed to carry out God's work. I've seen it several times where the woman in the church who motivates the pastor is usually not the wife. It is this same woman who is faithful and appears for every service and event. She makes sure she has an active role in the church to ensure the pastor has what he needs to be a success. I remember catching a sample of a minister's arrogance and certainty I was a likely candidate for this special role. The minister would give me direct eye contact and a look that reassured me my presence was much needed. Eventually, that look convinced me he needed me in his church on a regular basis. I was convinced I had a divine purpose and I must follow him wherever he goes. Nobody could tell me the Pastor didn't need me to be a great minister, so I kept coming back and waiting for that eye contact every Sunday. One day, I sat in a different place in the church and noticed my pastor giving a woman that same eye contact he gave me. This woman was just as confident and proud as I was about being needed by our pastor. At that point, I began to observe from a distance this minister's interactions with women. Every last one of them was mesmerized by his mere presence. He knew how to make each one feel very special without physically going past holy boundaries. A hug or a hand shake did the trick; but nothing could beat that eye contact. The confirmation that this wasn't just something in my mind came when I was becoming a regular and he started telling the other women to include me in special projects. They didn't take it too well and did just enough not to flunk the "Christian way of handling one another" test, while turning their noses up at me. I had to laugh inside as I observed how the minister knew just how to seduce women without sexual activity. For sure, to take possession of a soul, you must take possession of the mind. Trust me when I say the most powerful bond between a male and female is not sexual, but the joining of the minds. However, seduction has a unique and sadistically magical affect on the mind. It causes a woman to sacrifice herself for someone else without a just reward. Ministers have many women who are connected to them by hypnosis. They absorb every single word he says and allow it to fill the empty places in their lives. Who wouldn't want to be close to a preacher, a man of God? The enticement takes place in being determined to do the right thing --- keeping the man of God happy! Though some fail and become sexually involved, most don't because their fulfillment is in knowing she is special to the pastor. Women give large sums of money to have that adrenaline rush. Some go so far as to give up their husbands. Women love their pastors because it is a safe love requiring only one thing: him needing "us" to do God's work. Don't believe me? Look a woman straight in the eye and ask her, "How much do you love your pastor?"

MOLESTED ANGEL WINGS

As a survivor of molestation, I can honestly say there is a beautiful life after being molested. I remember watching "Woman Thou Art Loose" by TD Jakes. In the movie, the main character, a young female was raped by her mother's boyfriend who took her virginity. Neither her mother nor anybody in her life knew her inner suffering with this experience. That hidden anguish grew to self-destruction.
The movie bothered me from the standpoint that when a man of God counsels this young lady knowing her deep seated anger and offered her no answers and in the end no hope. This was a great devastation for me because the victim ends up shooting the victimizer at the altar in the House of God. People found this to be an excellent movie. I found it to be a preying on emotions and a means of an income dealing with a subject so complex and soul altering that to tamper with it with no resolve was unjust to molested victims needing help. Several years later, I still remember this disappointment.
With this in mind, I want victims, not only molested victims to know and understand there is hope and there are answers. We just have to discover our own path to God. I wrote a book, "LAST DAY OF VICTIMIZATION". This book reveals the soul of victimization and prepares victims and those who love and want to assist in the healing process answers and a real understanding why we are victims. Trust me if you really want to be delivered from your past, it can happen and it will if you consider the possibility it is because you are a child of God therefore you are a target for potential abuse.
Though many people would hate to admit, healing from molestation and many other forms of abuse takes time, lots of time. It is a shifting of gears from low to high with neutral sometimes making us think we are not progressing. I want molested angels all around the world to know you can and will accept your wings of freedom. When it happens you will know it. I remember accepting my wings. It happened in a way that never entered my mind. I owe it to my soul mate. I will ever be indebted to him.
Standing up for one's feelings, needs and desires was difficult for me as a molested victim because that natural choosing was denied me for so many years of my life. I faced the world not acknowledging my true feelings that made me who I am. Instead, the needs, feelings and desires of the ones I loved had precedence over mines; but finally after much trust in God and allowing myself to rise out of my private abyss, I spoke from my soul and risk the chance of disappointing or even losing my soul mate. See in the past, I was hollered at or spanked if I expressed my true feelings. But my day of realizing God has brought me from a long way, I spoke and received my Wings of Healing. Today, I can say: God will restore the years of the locusts. My past can no longer paralyze my presence. To be free is knowing you are AMAZING!

by Linda D. Wattley
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